Adoption: Different thoughts

We have always planned to have two kids and adopt two kids when our two where about 8 years old. Things have changed for me. I think that the time is now. I don't even know if I want to have another kid. I don't like being pregnant and I hated the c-section. Even the thought of going though 9 months of all that make me want to sleep. (know weired but true) I feel that for some reason I need to adopt a kid now. Like start calling people today. Sweetdude is scared about adopting and thinks we should stay with our plan. So for now I wait and we try to have another baby like planned as I pray God changes Sweetdude's mind.

Why I want to adopt

I guess you could say I have always wanted to adopt a child from the states. I young child waiting for a family.  I know that there are so many children here waiting for a family. I want to be able to do that.  I remember telling Sweetdude that if he didn't think you could ever adopt then we maybe shouldn't get married. He was shocked by my words but knew it must mean something to me.  I am not sure why now I feel is the time to start looking for the child God has planned for me to have from day one but I do. I haven't yet talk to Sweetdude about the timing in which it will happen but I know it is not too far off until we start everything. If that mean it is a month or a year so something else I am not sure. I know it is in God's hands and he know what will happen next. I can't wait to see the next step.